I love being obsessed! Careening around the dark corners of the mind looking for the absolute. Nothing like it!
And you? Don’t know what it’s like? Try this. Imagine descending late at night down swirling stairs into your castle keep, imagine sweeping everything off a table in a dark room where ancient manuscripts, maps, reference books, travel guides, letters, novels, and poetry lie everywhere, imagine planting a blazing light inches from your face and focusing your eyeballs so intensely that they become a single eye, like a gigantic robot-eye surging with power and purpose, forgetting everything else—food, family, friends, work, science, religion, all the “isms,” drugs, alcohol, sex, money, stars and the infinitude of Blake and Whitman in a blade of grass. For fire and death and truth and madness, wouldn’t you, like Macbeth, “jump the life to come?” And the books of PKD!
And you? Don’t know what it’s like? Try this. Imagine descending late at night down swirling stairs into your castle keep, imagine sweeping everything off a table in a dark room where ancient manuscripts, maps, reference books, travel guides, letters, novels, and poetry lie everywhere, imagine planting a blazing light inches from your face and focusing your eyeballs so intensely that they become a single eye, like a gigantic robot-eye surging with power and purpose, forgetting everything else—food, family, friends, work, science, religion, all the “isms,” drugs, alcohol, sex, money, stars and the infinitude of Blake and Whitman in a blade of grass. For fire and death and truth and madness, wouldn’t you, like Macbeth, “jump the life to come?” And the books of PKD!
I would rather have this literary madness than a
sharply honed intellect that can slice a thought into a thousand pieces and
architect them up like a house of cards. With notes. (God bless the soul that
can walk the middle way with the Buddha! Alas, not me. I prefer the cliff!) From
youth on, I have skulked like Gollum through literary obsessions—Sylvia Plath, Walt
Whitman, William Blake, Josef Conrad, Ray Bradbury, J. R. R Tolkien, Arthur
Conan Doyle, Shakespeare, Franz Kafka, H. P. Lovecraft, Faulkner, Dostoyevski—and
now, in the white beard of my days, Philip K. Dick!
I
didn’t know it was obsession until Dick came along; till then the madness was
normal. Now I recognize the heat in the brain and nod secretively when I think
of what the white rooms down the hall are for. I must have known when I read
all of King Lear
every night for six months! If not then, I do now. It’s all coming into focus .
. . down the spiral stairs . . . into
the castle keep:
Imagine a room full of computers manned by
individuals each controlling a human killer in a sequence of random moments so
that the killer can assassinate the embodiment of perfect predictability who
was chosen at random but not really. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this
up? —Philip K. Dick in Solar Lottery.
Imagine a guy hit by a beam of energy and sucked into
the realities of those around him one at a time and foregoing a chance to ascend
to heaven by merely hanging off the handle of an umbrella in order to find the
truth and return to his own world which may be his alone and not so hot after
all. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Eye in the Sky.
Imagine life and death and time being so ambiguously
each other that God can talk through an aerosol spray can while the world
crumbles backward in time which can’t be stopped because the aerosol spray which
is supposed to stop it is also crumbling back in time making it less and less
possible that God can do more than spray messages on a bathroom wall. What mad
dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Ubik.
Imagine a drug-saturated human monster turning the
entire universe into his own likeness and it’s all okay with those being corrupted
as they sit beside him and quietly chat. What mad dreamer could have dreamed
this up? —Philip K. Dick in The Three
Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch.
Imagine a man who is reluctantly waging nuclear war upon
lunar colonies over mineral rights and redeems himself by engaging in psychotic
time travel. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Time Out of Joint.
Imagine a planet where sanity is most concentrated
in an autistic child and a schizophrenic handy man and where land speculators insanely
try to get a leg up by having the autistic child peer into the future to see
what happens to a piece of land that only the indigenous people can traverse. What
mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Martian Time-Slip.
Imagine God flying to Earth from Mars and having a
hard time getting through customs. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up?
—Philip K. Dick in Divine Invasion.
Imagine a man living in a totalitarian state getting
messages from God through a satellite sent to earth from a distant star which
is destroyed by the nation’s arch enemy which is furtively its best friend and
never mind because another satellite is on its way but won’t be there for a
hundred years and meanwhile never mind—you’re dead. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip
K. Dick in Radio Free Albemuth.
Imagine a Christ-figure laboring up a mountain
mind-linked to human beings seeking hope while being stoned by others not
seeking hope and being fake and real at the same time on TV. What mad dreamer
could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?
Imagine a moon far away being governed successfully
by people beset by every kind of insanity and supported by a race of giant
insects. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Clans of the Alphane Moon.
Imagine a man who thinks he can think an atomic war into
reality and does it and survives long enough to see it all being put back
together again better than before. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up?
—Philip K. Dick in Dr. Bloodmoney.
Imagine moving backward in time in order to move
forward in time and having a robotic cab give you the skinny on what it all
means while a war rages on in which the allies are really the enemy and the world
leader keeps things going by collaborating with himself in different timelines.
What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Now Wait For Last Year.
Imagine suddenly waking up in a strange world where
you do not exist except inside the psychedelic hallucination of the daughter of
the top cop in the totalitarian state you are dreaming who cries tears of
compassion at the end. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Flow My Tears, the Policeman Said.
Imagine a land conquered by two totalitarian states
but which may actually be governed by an ancient oracle. What mad dreamer could
have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in The
Man in the High Castle.
Imagine a man who descends into madness as he unwittingly
spies on himself through a police scanner and at the end outside the government
asylum he’s committed to finds a blue flower from which the stuff that made him
insane is made and now that he’s in there he’s supposed to be a spy. What mad
dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in A Scanner Darkly.
Imagine the daughter-in-law of an Episcopal priest who died
in the desert with a couple of coke cans looking for Jesus finding freedom from
all that by tricking her spiritual advisor into giving her a record of Japanese
koto music. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in The Transmigration of Timothy Archer.
Imagine a reality so saturated with despair that
only a perfect illusion can hold insanity at bay and then only temporarily. Again
and again. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K. Dick in Maze of Death.
Imagine an insane man dealing satisfactorily with his
affliction by splitting himself up into three people, tracking down God and
finding her to be a little girl, who quickly dies, then sending a piece of himself
on a journey throughout the world looking for the 5th messiah, all
with the support of loyal friends and his writer self who stays at home and is up
all night every night taking notes. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up?
—Philip K. Dick in VALIS.
Imagine reality wrestling endlessly with itself without
resolution whipping the tail of a crazed writer who is obsessively thinking
himself into oblivion. What mad dreamer could have dreamed this up? —Philip K.
Dick in Exegesis.
So you want try out obsession? Ready to take it on? There’s
lots to work with in these books and it’s a ride you may never want to get off of.
Like you have a choice. Pulling yourself back together, you walk back up the
spiral stairs and you wonder why you never knew the sun was so bright. Want to
try it out? So, let the man teach you.
Stretch
your life to the chalky edge! Ravage the world with the fire of your mind! Rub
the ink off the page as you parse every phrase! Descend the secret stairs late
into the night! Again and again and again. --John Lentz
Over the years I have encountered an unusually large number of people with this particular PKD obsession, whereas practically no one with any other kind of literary obsession. You definitely have hit on some quality in his work that people are responding to in this unusual way. I can only speak for myself--he sees reality the way I see it. The recognition of a "kindred" spirit is very powerful. One feels less alone in the world in the company of such a tutelary presence.
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